I’m not sure if everyone has songs they avoid, or if that’s just me. I’m not talking about the ones that are associated with memories of any kind – I’m just talking about songs I avoid because I just can’t handle them.
Patty Griffin‘s “Wishing Well,” Lori McKenna‘s “Your Next Lover” and Taylor Swift‘s “Last Kiss.” There’s more, but those are off the top of my head. I have to skip them each time they come up. Even when I’m happy. They make me want to curl up in bed and not move for the rest of the day.
I get it, Taylor Swift isn’t everyone’s favorite. But I relate to the things she says and they’ve helped me through some tough times and added to celebrations of the good times, too. “Last Kiss” kills me just about every time I listen to it.
This morning I let it play. It’s still playing. I’ve considered closing my office door and crying a few times. Specifically because of this:
And I hope the sun shines
And it’s a beautiful day
And something reminds you
You wish you had stayed
You can plan for a change in weather and time
But I never planned on you changing your mind
So I’ll go sit on the floor
Wearing your clothes
All that I know is
I don’t know how to be something you miss
Never thought we’d have a last kiss
Never imagined we’d end like this
Your name, forever the name on my lips
Funny how things just hit you. Sometimes I wish life had a better sense of humor.